i have been
bent and broken,
but — i hope —
into a better shape.
Tag: quoted
content.
sans suppose.
to have and to bold.
just legs.
your iphone pocket-called me the other day.
you were walking.
i could hear your legs moving.
i was in your pants, after all, with the phone.
swip swip. swip swip. swip swip.
very rhythmic. soothing.
i listened in for a while.
i was hoping for a scrap of inappropriate conversation.
i like to overhear things that hurt me.
i got nothing.
just legs.
you were just going somewhere.
totally.
exactly.
we are all frazzled and unruly, you and me. we are desperate and wistful and restless and funny and frayed at the edges. we can worry that we’re doing it all wrong, we can long for central air or true love or a view of the ocean, and that’s just part of the fucking clown show. we can be ingrates and role models, we can be flinchy and heroic, we can be courageous and also melancholy. there is nothing wrong with feeling unsafe and uncertain. there is nothing wrong with addled, misguided parenting, or self-involved rambling. i give you permission, my friend, to continue on this twisted, sweet path of suffering and satisfaction and distraction. i give you my blessing, my partner in failing at everything. i am witness to your grace and your faltering. i give you my undying love, as you struggle and stutter and the sun falls from the sky.
when the earth stops spinning, we will panic. there is no avoiding it. we’ll be crying and shaking, just like that woman at the side of the road, wondering if we did it the right way. we’ll wonder if we failed ourselves, or failed each other, if we were a big disappointment, in the end.
please remember, we were not a disappointment. not at all, not even close. we were gorgeous and strong, you and me. we were terrible and troubled and utterly divine.
pretty please.
words gone wild.
soulcycle is gross. #grateful
oh sweet baby jesus day.
mary’s soulcycle article is fucking ON.
not to mention she writes like a baws.
think @cdmtthws × @1800gg ÷ lolz.
aaaanyway, fav rants include =
(1) in october, i bought a block of 20 classes which cost exactly one million dollars. now i go like three times a week. over a year this works out to all the money i can imagine in my brain in one go.
(2) some clothes have a skull on them. it looks like badassery that roller derby girls would be hyped on. and everybody knows roller derby girls are depressing as fuck.
(3) nothing beats soulcycle for dumbing all the way out or re-calibrating a mood in less than an hour which is reassuring since i typically wake up in a panic that’s candy-coated with a low-grade rage.
(4) they also sell you water for $2 but i bring my own because they can fuck themselves straight to hell if they think they’re draining any more goddamned money from me.
(5) most of the instructors are pretty good but i avoid all the ones who like mashups because they’re disgusting monsters who need to pull it together.
(6) you will suck really hard the first five times you go and then you get better. between time one and three you get a lot better while remaining in the suck category … mostly, it’s hard to follow along while you want to barf out of your eye ducts.
(7) soulcycle feels gross, is gross and i’m grateful to have found it.
always.
the best.
the price of anything
is the amount of life
you exchange for it.
– thoreau
sir real.
isn’t it just.
distinguishables.
we nevermind.
get up.
“ … get up, walk to a plant store, and pick out a plant you really like. take it home and set it by the window, and water it every single morning while you’re waiting for your coffee to be done. you are a regular pretty lady living a regular life, and this is the very beginning of your story. stay open to the world around you. pay attention to people who aren’t bullet-proof brands. give some time to those who make you work a little harder to see them clearly, to let them in. you are raw potential, but you’ll only stay golden if you give up on glory and show the world your true goofy, unwashed, brutal, brilliant, opinionated, vulnerable self. make them work harder for it. and if they’re not offering you the deal you want, be prepared to walk.”
boomerang.
we are so used
to releasing words,
we don’t know
what to do with them
if they stay.
no matter
how many times
we let them go,
they come back.
the words that matter
always stay.
david levithan
gone fishing.
fries king.
pies & sighs.
i could relate to my breakfast.
i was fried.
i was scrambled.
i was fresh squeezed.
so it goes.
a purpose
of human life,
no matter
who is controlling it,
is to love
whoever is around
to be loved.
kurt vonnegut
30 love.
i love you when
you are asleep,
or in the yard,
or at work,
or out with your friends.
≥ .
the need
for mystery
is greater than
the need
for an answer.
ken kesey
air bubbles.
if only
we were
obsessed
with space
as we are
with time.
edward abbey
boss.
glitter, not bitter.
some people don’t even realize they’re bitter. if you don’t know whether you are or not, here’s a quick quiz you can give yourself. if you ever wake up in the morning and the first thing you say is, “oh, fuck, not again,” …
you might be a little bitter.
marc maron
almost always.
when people tell you
something’s wrong
or doesn’t work for them,
they are almost always right.
when they tell you
exactly what they think is wrong
and how to fix it,
they are almost always →
wrong.
neil gaiman
the illustrations above are from a nsfw(ish) series by grégoire guillemin called the secret life of heroes. of course, i found grégoire’s series just as the office maildude decided to drop a package off at my desk. of course, i was stuck on the one of superwoman deep throating a banana (of course). in other news, my coral plimsoll sneakers arrived.
perfect timing.
t.hanks.
eventually everything connects.
people, ideas, objects …
the quality of the connections
is the key to quality
per se.
charles eames
sing it, edith.
but but butts.
anonymous:..does there come a point in being a success when the laurels get heaped so high that you just kind of fall ass-backwards onto it and have a rest? or is everything exhausting, forever?
richard lawson:..christ i can’t wait to fall ass-backwards onto laurels.
spanx.
live fast, die jung.
an unhurried
sense of time
is in itself
a form of wealth.
– bonnie friedman
be kind, rewind.
and it was all.
double double & shit.
till duh.
the madness.
bear fox franco.
oscar wilde said that if you know what you want to be, then you inevitably become it – that is your punishment, but if you never know, then you can be anything. there is a truth to that. we are not nouns, we are verbs. i am not a thing – an actor, a writer – i am a person who does things – i write, i act – and i never know what i am going to do next. i think you can be imprisoned if you think of yourself as a noun.
we so tame.
bloggin photos
of the rainforests
and the deep sea
but you never been
wild.
– frank ocean
full sun.
thinkin bout 2004.
“it’s the sense of touch. in any real city, you walk, you know? you brush past people, people bump into you … nobody touches you. we’re always behind this metal and glass. i think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something.”
this movie came out when i was a freshman in college and a lot of my newly acquired, ivy-envious social circle thought it was a terrible film. i’m pretty sure, after vocalizing their massive distaste to the group, they had little difficulty forgetting it was ever made. i, however, remember liking it a lot, if only for don cheadle’s opening line. brushing and bumping and not touching and crashing? it’s been like [pause, calculating] 8.5 years since this movie was released [pause, “holy shit. it’s been 8.5 years? seriously?”] and i’m still quoting it. c’mon. don’t be like that. this line is gorgeous! it’s about aggressive loneliness. and cruel disconnectedness. and like … having feelingz.
i have all the feelingz.
also, sandra bullock.
for.
eccellente!
the things.
terms & conditions.
*
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there are times when
it will go so wrong
that you will barely be alive,
and times when you realize
that being barely alive,
on your own terms,
is better than living
a bloated half-life
on someone else’s terms.
no soap.
winter warmer.
*
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spin magazine calls
the creaking of floorboards
“the sound of summer 2012”
the click of a key sliding into a lock
“the winter warmer of 2013”