like more than a friend.


here’s the thing … it’s too damn nice out to do anything but get straight to the point (and on to enjoying this crazy beautiful day). yea? yea. ok then. let’s do this:

1.  imo michelle is the true leader of the free world. would be a helluva vp nom, hil. just sayin’.
2.  ooOoo bamboo sushi annex is open! those signature bowls look p. bomb (and hella $$$).
3.  ♥︎-ing jessi’s book (reading b/f bed per hh’s fab life rec). v. excited she’s at powell’s fri 7.22.
4.  weed + a shit ton of rosé not your thing? here’s an alt vehicle for relaxation. only $17,000!
5.  this video is preeetty weird, but now the song’s stuck in my head so i guess i live here now?
6.  yea ok fine fast co we’re kinda sorta totally really super jealous, but like … it’s still etsy tho.
7.  all the murals in portland still feel like they were only finished a few hrs before i found them.
8.  eaterrr. i needed this creative veggie / vegan dishes map, like, yesterday. eesh. i mean thx!
9.  these forest creature candids are great, but wassup squirrel is obvs his best work. duhdoi.
10.  what to do w/ this lighthouse or … it’s the end of the world as we know it (and i feel fine).
11.  bit by a domestic travel bug like woah. something tells me san antonio is the way to go.
12.  apparently, even tho i’ve never seen an episode, i reeally like west wing fanatics. go figure.
13.  things that pair well together: song exploder and perusing kindah’s tank and other bits.
14.  i’m sry did you say burlesque tribute to beyoncé this sat 7.23 at disjecta? count. me. in.
15.  “i don’t exactly know what i mean by that, but i mean it.” – j.d. salinger

get it. get out there.

yo. yo!

i don’t know what just happened, but in a sudden turn of still-at-work events, i’m now writing this and drinking a frozen marg out of a disposable paper cup and eating free-to-me microwave nachos. before things get reeeeeeal wild, imma stop questioning whatever beautiful coincidence brought this snack into my life and just press send b/c those are called blessings baby, get you some:

1.  jess said i had to say something ’bout pokémon go (or umm else?). ok fine. here u go.
2.  srsly trying to move to se so duh i re-followed apt therapy. ooo look → a flea in eugene!
3.  yo. anybody hit up the mister green party at machus? were the pyt’s really lookin’ this fly?
4.  remember #4 hunnymilk? well, they’re swell. hosting a stealth burger night on tue 8.2 too.
5.  mad self-aware props 2 celine dion 4 rocking a chic oversized af titanic hoodie. mhwgo.
6.  if you stop by my desk and i’m not watching this a+ video on repeat, something is vvv wrong.
7.  heading to 112° desert for a vip 30th. leaned in & powell’d a pool read. now watch me dip.
8.  oh shit. weekly rooftop cinema at hotel deluxe started! hairspray on thurs 8.18, anyone?
9.  plus the (annual?) weird plants sale at the portland nursery this wknd. buy low sell high : )
10.  prob fulla tween-somethings, but gotta admit – champagne safari is a räd day party theme.
11.  tam closed in april b/c of flooding, so sat 7.16’s wonton party is, like, a really big deal ok?
12.  then again, canadian monks just released 600 lbs of live lobster into the ocean. ♥︎ is ♥︎ y’all.
13.  reeeally into this welcome to night vale taping on thurs 7.21. guh. love a good ghost story!
14.  if “champagne dunk tank” is what i think it is, consider me tré sad to miss bit house’s b-day.
15.  thx 2 ww’s pro / tips, now following @pdxalerts and wondering which color gloves to get.
16.  “love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs.” – shakespeare

peace and tortilla chips.

hello. hi. hi.

i held off on sending this yesterday because it didn’t feel right and – being a stubborn as fuck feels all the feels feeler – i listen carefully to that sort of thing. okay. so it’s not yesterday anymore. i think that’s fine. maybe even more than fine. yes. i’m gonna go with that. good riddance yesterday. leaving this list right here in case you’d like some good feels in your inbox. take only as needed:

1.  i love these women. i love these men. yes yes & yes. these are my humans. much love, wk.
2.  i could listen to losin control and lsd forever and ever inhale exhale namaste amen amen.
3.  if neither of those are ur jams, i suggest u try pma’s best songs of 2016 (so far) for an alt.
4.  been craving hat yai’s fried chicken since last dec and last night i finally saw what’s what.
5.  can’t think of anything sweeter than seeing west side story in 70mm on fri, sat, sun 7.17.
6.  to the brain behind the name zigzagzurich: uhhh can we haaang? drink iced chai’s and chill?
7.  count me and my eavesdropping voyeuristic tendencies in for dwell home tours on sat 8.27.
8.  if moulin rouge sing-a-long equals solid friday night plans 4 u, consider us behst frehnds.
9.  s/o to the goth float on the clackmas fb invite. lol bonus pts for the cover photo & spf 100.
10.  what’s on tap sat 7.23? oh, just a fight club screening + q&a w/ chuck palahniuk. nbd.
11.  still waiting for someone to curate a legit 1st thurs guide. as for july … idk blackfish maybe?
12.  really enjoying oliver’s volte-face, famous places photographed from the wrong direction.
13.  been a min since my last diy / hack. might be time to give wit & delight’s runner a go go.
14.  who am i kidding … breakfast is wayyyy more realistic (i don’t even have stairs in my apt).
15.  my desire to up and visit the jennings hotel in joseph has officially reached absurd status.
16.  “as i watched the seagulls, i thought: that’s the road to take; find the absolute rhythm and follow it with absolute trust.” – nikos kazantzakis

lists, love, and lsd.

geez louise.

what day is it? wed? thurs? sun? no idea. genuine surprise every time i check my phone. i tell ya, this whole week before a long holiday weekend time space continuum is a beeeeeast. let’s just hope my phone is right and it’s thurs or else uhh sorry? actually, no. strike that. not sorry. pls enjoy this timeless slice of knowledge goodness:

1.  yea i binge watch apple trailers. what? brings me gems like buddymoon and flula okay.
2.  it’s summer which means editors are working hard to ensure yololiving your best life.
3.  obsessed with the idea that anything could be released exclusively at dollar general. heh.
4.  nursing a theory that urban development is the new climate change (formerly what we eat).
5.  spotted a dude wearing this. googled it. found it. bought it. what an incredible time 2 b alive.
6.  unless your thingie involves 100’s of joyful joyful corgis, i’m unavail on sat 7.30 and sat 8.20.
7.  shocked toad the wet sprocket + rusted root gen. admin tickets are $38. das bold toads.
8.  boy bye by super professional is giving me so much hope n’ happiness n’ hootenanny rn.
9.  aww new seasons & ww are hosting a block party in slabtown on wed 7.13. uhhhdorable.
10.  oh, design milk. you had me at combo master, lounger, rooftop garden top floor oasis.
11.  löyly helsinki looks like a dream, but i’m pretty positive löyly portland is just as divine.
12.  can two people love each other for a long, long time? sarah says, “gosh, i hope so.”
13.  and here i thought jumping off the high dive was f-ing terrifying … happy 4th of july, g. star!
14.  per request (and cause i secretly love christmas in july), these are a few of my fav things.
15.  “like the way the sun is right now, with the long shadows, and that kind of bright, soft light you get when the sun isn’t quite setting? that’s the light that makes everything better, everything prettier, and today, everything just seemed to be in that light.” – john green

peace, love, and ample natural light.

hello there!

well. we did the damn thing. again. it’s been a slightly meh idk everyone’s on vacay week, but the overall undervibe seems to suggest cool big shape shifty things are on the horizon. if y’all have any leads, hit me. i hate surprises. speaking of giving everyone total fair warning forever and always …

1.  brooke barker strikes again! tyyyy anna beth for the bb hot tip. also, omg ab your cat.
2.  spotify’s put some funky stuff on my weekly, but i’m suddenly feelin’ sleepers’ reign. lift off!
3.  been years since i updated mine, but w/ a name like super awesome video screensaver
4.  “teen boy waits patiently as his prom date recreates entirety of beyonce’s formation” – hyfr
5.  umm why isn’t everyone talking about the festival of balloons this wknd? fun & dangerous!
6.  major summer party sat 6.25 in cathedral park. 2 my nyc refugees, go. st. johns is red hook.
7.  and then (no and then!) sun 6.26 is a frances may sample sale. read: 75-90% off this ditty.
8.  oh, to be young n’ free n’ have a license n’ get your head stuck in a barney for 45min. kids!
9.  pine st. is a ux nightmare (update eat / pay flow 2 be like foodlife plz). dat green falafel tho.
10.  the mercury released a jeff goldblum issue! whoever actualized my thoughts / prayers, ty.
11.  full sun tomorrow (and for the next 10 days). i’d recco tan-ebrating at century or bible club.
12.  adarchives is making me v. nostalgic for the stussylevi’s, and benetton i never owned.
13.  an adorbs ebay admin is out to stack the 6pm ab fab at regal stadium on fri 7.22. get. it.
14.  if u know who makes this star spangled low plunge, plz reveal yourself. 2 me. eod. asap.
15.  “i daydream on the idea that maybe all this barbarism and all these transgressions against ourselves is an equal and opposite reaction to something better happening in this world, some great swelling wave of openness and wakefulness out here.” – frank ocean

loving undervibes,

hi hi.

thurs list went awol last week because i was in nyc for a wacky work shoot and swamped with some crazy (good-grueling / exciting-exhausting) priority to-do’s. i got back on monday am and *huge surprise* have been commuting via struggle bus ever since. oh yea? you too? weirdddd. pretty sure we just need to drink more water or get a good night’s sleep or have someone whisper sweet internet nothings into our ears while we get a good night’s sleep. the last one? np:

1.  if u haven’t seen zootopia, stop drop n’ go. read btw the lines. it’s trill social commentary.
2.  wait. imessage is changing? is this the part where we’re too old and don’t “get it” anymore?
3.  some eavesdrop. others draw cartoons on cocktail napkins. team early & waiting at the bar.
4.  one of these two things is almost exactly like the other. how much kitsch is too much kitsch?
5.  backlight slide on sat 6.18 is sold out / might be a bust due to rain, but dayum it looks rad af.
6.  picnics are overrated, but movies in the park are def not. thurs 7.7. n. park blocks. woo me.
7.  pugs is the pdx underground grad school which makes pugsfest a very misleading fb invite.
8.  i know i know magazines are dead, but these indies are so pretty. can we get one? plzzzzz?
9.  cult korean beauty products would be killer ref images for a high brow horror mood board.
10.  paul simon released a new album and nobody called me? the phone goes both ways, paul.
11.  here’s a bfd: pdx outdoor pools opened on tue! might i recommend a classic pairing?
12.  tix for tacos n’ tequila on sat 6.18 are sold out, but it’s portland so just show up n’ be nice.
13.  after you’re full up on tacos / tequila, see the liberators at 7:30pm. no drunk heckling tho.
14.  jo roy’s tribute to fry’s hatred of dancing has led me down a vsq k-hole. plz send help.
15.  “true success is figuring out your life and career so you never have to be around jerks.” – john waters

g’night in the morning.


hey hey hey.

y’all know my feels re: the short work week after a long weekend so maybe we leave the groggy grimey wtf plz make it stop bits behind and just tell each other something nice. yea? you’re into that? well then fuck man. how about a whole bunch of somethings nice:

1.  k stew doesn’t usually do it for me, but those gold hoops & that smokey jam … damn.
2.  eeesh willamette week is really dr. jekyll and mr. hyde-ing over pine st. market. ww r u ok?
3.  looking 4 quality wknd lolz? hit up set list at the bridgetown comedy fest. thurs, fri, and sat.
4.  there’s an exact replica of the max in chicago you can actually sit down and eat in. zoinks!
5.  celebrating tusk’s opening later this month by putting the best track on 24/7 repeat one.
6.  “i want to wear a hat without anyone commenting on the hat.” – ajrudy droppin’ major truths.
7.  you’ll need to get me preeeetty drunk to tag along, but once i’m there … i’ll never be sorry.
8.  q: have you ever heard of a better name for a pizza place than please louise? a: noooooooo.
9.  someone plz test this slushie drank recipe and report back asap. asking for many friendz.
10.  the holy moly-est dog days of summer are officially set. blessed be sun 6.12 and sat 8.20.
11.  the blissfully slow world of internet newsletters is why i decided to give tinyletter a shot.
12.  surprised joe’s cellar didn’t make eater’s round-up of iconic pdx greasy spoons. no good?
13.  the woodsman tavern now serves lunch on weekdays. oh jes kiddos. the italian is back!
14.  love that this article on asking for a raise assumes the boss is a woman. [awkward pause]
15.  “you were always perfect and i was only practice.” – chance the rapper

corgi days & oaxacan nights.

well hello there!

in case mild acquaintances haven’t reminded you every goddamn day this week, memorial day is upon us which – apparently – means it’s our civic duty to have an engaging response to a lot of unsolicited “what about you? doing anything special?” inquiries. idk. imma live my best life and try to remember to not come into work on mon. anywho … how about a list of unsolicited niceees? no response needed. unless the spirit moves ya.

1.  you know what they say … smoke ’em if you got ’em. idk maybe only scott k. says that.
2.  after i get a dining table (eta fucknever), imma host a party. tldr anything but the wine bags.
3.  listening to animal collective’s don’t think twice, it’s all right cover on repeat cause i can ok.
4.  superwrong about the last flea i plugged, but sun 5.29 will actually be worth a visit. i swear.
5.  the 6th big float is on sun 7.10. lovebomb go-go? 100ft slip n slide? stock up now, folks.
6.  “she fedexed it – it’s … the real deal.” – bay garnett on sevigny’s contribution to fanpages.
7.  ooOOoo akron street expanded its roster of hip clean minimal apartment shit. elotap. done.
8.  odds lawaara will need taste testers 4 stephen shore’s key lime pie supreme? good, right?
9.  will wale regret the “snapchat shortie” lyric in my pyt or nah? a timeless classic regardless?
10.  speaking of, the history of snapchat is fascinating. s/o to female intuition and looksery.
11.  ode to the spicy italian grinder as inspired by the o-bros’ osteria cart on sw 10th & alder.
12.  ginuwine & yeasayer play wonder ballroom on fri 5.27 & sun 5.29, respectively. gbless.
13.  no? no yeasayer? what about connor’s monthly sichuan collab? can we at least try that?
14.  “if there’s one thing i’ve learned, it’s this: we all want everything to be okay. we don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. we will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough.” – david levithan

hoi polloiz & party noize.


sending this one later than usual, so i’m imagining you’re now wearing your comfy evening clothes and have settled in for a calm, quiet, lovely little thurs evening. maybe an adult beverage in hand? ok ok idk it was just a maybe … anywho … whilst you sit n’ sip (ack ok or not!), here’s some things to consider:

1.  been thinking a lot about album openers. jo’s longstanding fav is over my dead body. you?
2.  “their lives, in the long, warm nights, go on regardless.” – fuck it, portrait of uganda nightlife.
3.  surprised at the # of big box hotel giants opening up. the chamberlain looks promising tho.
4.  ooOOOoo a round-up of vvv intriguing us islands! a+ cause mackinac is my freaking jam.
5.  the deluxe’s 19th hole returns on fri 5.27. let the boozy mini golf and umami goodtimes roll.
6.  who doesn’t ♥ a good modern day hanson video? big moment for taylor at 1:30. mmm[bop].
7.  comedy bang bang’s live podcast taping is tue 5.24. turns out ppl are vvv psyched for this!
8.  any word on roi friday? the first one is fri 5.27 on se 2nd btw taylor & yamhill. i’m intrigued …
9.  reese’s pieces were my mall movie marathon candy of choice, so this news is pleasing 2 me.
10.  also re: pleasing foodie news, ya hala serves brunch now. za’atar croissant? duh ok yes.
11.  this feels a lot like all those free ipod scams from 10-12ish years ago. i mean … good luck?
12.  heard about lost lander at mississippi studios b/c matt was in my improv class. portland!
13.  anyone wanna roadtrip to vegas to see 30ft dayglow totems? anyone? anyone? bueller?
14.  “you’re on earth. there’s no cure for that.” – samuel beckett

peace n’ hotel sex,

hey you’s. you’s who kick all the ass there is to kick. i like how you do. i like how we do. here’s a little of this and a whole lot of that to get you through:

1.  the table i’ve been lusting after since xmas is on sale. i don’t think i’m ready for this jelly.
2.  holy moly that’s a lot of unclaimed loose change. like, salaries worth. lol at pago pago tho.
3.  i support the sheets, backpack, and portable charger portion of nymag’s strategist fyiiiiiiiii.
4.  well lookee here … st. johns is throwing it’s 10th annual bizarre this sat 5.14. what a ‘hood!
5.  willamette week released a 2016 bar guide so from my liver to yours: sorry (i ain’t sorry).
6.  i might be going to minneapolis in june and july so vvv thankful for this cup of jo city guide.
7.  j. lo’s song ain’t your momma is … umm … not great, but dang the vid couture is on point.
8.  if maven collective taught me anything, it’s that the 5.15 montavilla flea will be a must see.
9.  dark, bright, dirty, flirty, fabulous, and just wanna dance? same. c u at holocene on sat 6.4.
10.  my fav insta dawgs directed tegan & sarah’s new video. what an incredible time 2 b alive.
11.  if the idea of an ice cream seuss off doesn’t get you lit from the inside out, then oh man idk.
12.  bless basilsk cause i’ve been craving a monstrous chicken sandwich for 2 damn weeks.
13.  the met gala was a thematic wtf, but then cass camped out in the ladies and poof … fab.
14.  “there is always some madness in love. but there is also always some reason in madness.” – nietzsche

another thurs in, another list out. feelin’ preeeeeeetty good about all the things (man o man vitamin d does the mind body good, yah?). call me crazy, but i’m thinking we skip all that fluffy surface small talk shit and just f-ing go for it. yea? ok cool. glad that’s settled:

1.  spotted elijah wood at kure, but my sandal strap keeps sliding off so, like, call it a wash?
2.  josh is an old buddy of mine so if anyone needs a fact check, yes, he is actually that nice.
3.  i will be listening to just like me by betty who for the next 48-72hrs so please bear with me.
4.  next time anyone above drinking age mentions tumblr, make sure they’ve read this article.
5.  no plans sat 5.7? got u. go see back to the future live w/ maestro kitsopoulos at the helm.
6.  local natives is one of my fav bands but they’ve been mia since 2013. that is … until now.
7.  i’m not a huge fan of face swap (feels akin to other ppls babies) but this one … dayum.
8.  sorta feel like i should stop making lists now that this one is up and at ’em. only sorta tho :)
9.  olsen twins hiding from the paparazzi is now closed so if you went pls find n’ regale me.
10.  viceroy is dj-ing euphoria thurs 5.19. stoked b/c his epic remix playlist is an old love.
11.  hitting up first thurs 2nite and unimpressed there isn’t a comprehensive map. amiwrong?
12.  any word on shalom y’all? srsly if this isn’t the catch-all for my pnw jew woes, then idk.
13.  paul simon concert!? yspls but like circa 1970 somewhere lovely and warm and peaceful.
14.  “in a world full of temporary things you are a perpetual feeling.” – sanober khan

i’ve been seriously non-functional zombie-esque all week for no good reason whatsoever. hedging major bets next week will be infinitely better. until then, how about we just relax and click and forgive ourselves a lil’ bit?

1.  it’s rumours on coffee shop blast season so obviously love love loving these bomb remixes.
2.  bummed it took me 29 yrs of inner thigh summer rubbing to discover this magical little stick.
3.  went on a diffuser rampage. settled on pb’s, but really wish i had known about alder & co.’s.
4.  baptiste yoga was my jam in nyc so you can bet your bendy butt imma try melinda’s class.
5.  the garden behind pizza jerk will soon be home to a sweet weekly backyard pop-up. whew.
6.  thx to web queen shannon hutchinson, i’ve been attending this emoji party all damn day.
7.  holy shit classpass now costs $200/mo in nyc like how are they even allowed to do that?
8.  okay camp kidz now let’s get in formation. camp nostalgia is a real thing and we’re going.
9.  anyone else read moment junkie? i’m not a “wedding person” but it’s def a guilty follow.
10.  “she’s not the hero we deserve, but she’s the hero we need.” – re: the kiss cam pizza star
11.  fully loved beg improv w/ nicholas. confirming his sat 4.30 show is gonna be f-ing ace.
12.  just making sure everyone knows annie leibovitz photographed the queen and her corgis.
13.  been listening to lemonade non stop because duh obvs. lemme know if you need a login.
14.  “do anything, but let it produce joy. do anything, but let it yield ecstasy.” – henry miller

well well well. we f*cking did it. another thurs bites the dust. onto the next boiiiiiiis. tomorrow i’m hitting the road for an early mexican birthday with joanna and elana. plz do me a solid and spend all next week doing you, keeping it real, treating yourself, going for it, raising the stakes, and giving everybody hellllllllll. until then, some list ♥ for my list lovelies:

1.  packy the elephant turned 54 today so obvs pdx zoo keepers made him a cake. hbd packy!
2.  this best neighborhood bar poll is decently comprehensive if you click through each ‘hood.
3.  godbless adventure iphone cases. ain’t nobody got time for half-assed flare. k, otterbox?
4.  wanted: someone to treat me like the most sublime creature on earth. are you my lobster?
5.  a+ four tet remix of sia’s “chandelier” c/o never not got her finger on the pulse sarah brin.
6.  why does the 1960s architecture collective superstudio feel oddly familiar? cuties to boot.
7.  not to overhype, but thurs 4.21 at han oak is gonna be the most killer french foodie day ever.
8.  pretty much amazing is living up to its namesake with a v. helpful fav albums of 2016 page.
9.  if you are not doing everything to attend the bloody mary block party on sun 5.1, then idk.
10.  iiiiiiiiiiiiiiii just wanna fly. put your arms around me baby. put your arms around me baby.
11.  insiders + outsiders agree, if there’s one new bar to try this weekend, it’s americano in se.
12.  an internet date got me on this bone thugs fleetwood remix so, like, chivalry isn’t dead?
13.  re-watched the sliding doors trailer and shit guys they don’t make ’em like they used to.
14.  “if you hide your ignorance, no one will hit you and you’ll never learn.” – ray bradbury

there are some suuuuuuper good vibes roaming round these halls today. can’t think of anything i’d rather do than soak it up and get right to it:

1.  i’ve fallen down an ultimate rihanna lookbook hole and now i don’t care to get up. goodday.
2.  these make my ♥ swell with dreams of disposable incomes & hobbies that stimulate my mind.
3.  relistening to midnight moon by waterstrider thx to discover wkly. damn, kid. lookin’ good.
4.  nytimes be all like,aaaaand you get a yacht! and you get a yacht! and you get a yacht!”
5.  based on 3:36, 8:54, 9:36, 12:27, j. lo and i reeeally need to party. tonight boo boo. club-wise.
6.  pdx’s best peruvian lunch is in sw and w/n walking distance of the aerial tram. dayyy date!
7.  the only thing better than @travelgov’s blatant neg is the cut mansplaining it out for them.
8.  got a copy of boy club magazine in the mail on mon and it is divine. worth every darn penny.
9.  y’all clear on beyonce’s new athleisure line? good cause damn. b’s team srsly gets digital.
10.  getting thru the week like … as wk diva whisperer carolyn d. would say, “struggle. bus.”
11.  prince coffee opened up in north portland last sat! vvv excited because stroopwafels.
12.  guyz. everything shawn huckins touches is trill n beautiful n hilarious n nthing is real.
13.  broder is opening up in hood river and thank god b/c i cannot eat anymore bs pizza.
14.  wait. hold up. there’s a big gay boat ride on sun jun 19? that is just, like, all the things.
15.  “you remember what is lost, and you forget what’s right in front of you.” – ann brashares

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man oh man it’s been a weird and rough couple of weeks. everything was turned up to 11 and i didn’t have any time/space to stop and breathe and think, only react. super gross. seriously not my jam. not long term anyhow. bright side is i can totally see the light. like, literal light. literal bright side. full sun. 60° and rising. how about we celebrate with a nice fresh list? ja? jaaaaa.

1.  please dear lord let everything the nytimes said about suttle lodge & boathouse be true.
2.  guess i’m not the only one still waiting on their oregon tax return. deep comment lolz ahead.
3.  to cry, apologize, and take things personally w/o repercussion or judgment. all of this please.
4.  “garbage person” just taught me that internet linguist is an actual job. such jel. much wtf.
5.  vvv promising vibes for tryst on ankeny alley + bible club in sellwood. salud, adventuresses.
6.  sometimes the new yorker just freaking nails it, ya know? that first two star review. dying.
7.  you’re free 4.18 to 4.24 right? ok good cause it’s pdx pizza week and i already said we’d go.
8.  i plan to recreate the sorry video at founder’s day tmrw. u too? cool. let’s coordinate outfits.
9.  i’ll bet good $$$ kindah khalidy is a hella whimsical soul with salt & pepper art teacher hair.
10.  oo! willamette week’s 2016 cheap eats edition is out. maje sorries if you’re reading hungry.
11.  erdem’s crazy fingers are creating a drum line that should totallllly not be possible solo.
12.  dayum tina. way to effing slay the framing / situ of @creaturecomforts’ plumage print.
13.  ok. just to be suuuuuuuuper clear, lord huron will be in town on sat 8.20 … at the zoo.
14.  gucci is such a sexy beautiful weirdo rn. ugh to be wild n’ free n’ rock big a$$ lip earrings.
15.  “please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough. and i will believe the same about you.” – stephen chobsky

thurs list is back after a week-long haitus (oh heyyyyy crazy town mon, tue, wed, thurs, fri … how u?). this list thang turned 21 today so, like, have a bougie cocktail in its honor. or just have one in general. have one cause it’s sunny. yea! cause it’s f-ing sunny. cheeeeeeers! (we can too have it all):

1.  djds’ remix of rihanna’s “work” is absolutely perfect. would’t change a goddamn thing.
2.  after a year of searching, finally scored a mcm low boy dresser from the reclaimory.
3.  told carly about #2 and she got me hooked on this a+ etsy shop for more dresser dreamin’.
4.  2 savory, sweet, and deliciously whimsical courses plus a bev for $20? hello, hunnymilk!
5.  tegan & sara are releasing a new album in june. not even embarrassed how excited i am.
6.  such a foodie crush on maya lovelace. y’all as my witness, i will one day snag a seat at mae.
7.  danica showed me this delightful game called stack and now i can’t stop thinking about it.
8.  oOo look! an easy breezy cool ass chica tip on how to messily half roll your jeans. yussss!
9.  i know güd people who neeeeeeed a coffee table book on the last authentic ny pizzerias.
10.  dame is opening in the old cocette space (nr. beast) and i have feels it’s gonna be great.
11.  the great discontent is my fav blog to cool ppl watch. the fuzzco post didn’t disappoint.
12.  totally loving beginning improv with nicholas kessler. highly highly highly recommend.
13.  sun 3.20 is the last portland flea at their og unionpine location. imma def be there. u?
14.  “you live and learn. at any rate, you live.” – douglas adams

ok. so it’s not thurs anymore. i know. but thurs fucking sucked (especially for feelers – big feeler over here) so i went with my feels and didn’t send this on a thurs thurs. that said, i subscribe to the belief that bear hugs and loud laughs and randomly texting the people you love and remembering there’s a world beyond our desks that’s full of ridiculously beautiful shit is some of the best medicine. so, without futher adieu, here’s a fresh “thurs list” from me to you:

1.  apple launched @applesupport and the replies section (aka HALP ME) is way too real.
2.  a pop up spa where rabbits hop around to provide a “calming atmosphere”. what a world!
3.  the hairy lobster just opened on nw 11th & kearny. betting the bread & butter is where it’s at.
4.  these sculptural senior portraits are giving me liiife. eyes as big as plates. what a name!
5.  ever used live lovely to find an apt? heather morba got me into it. looks super promising.
6.  got word ’bout these great playlists from able’s amazing newsletter. keep the vibe alive.
7.  there’s a profesh wanderlust amongst us. ms. arrazcaeta got the solo travel sector on lock.
8.  the promo for ellen paige’s viceland documentary series gaycation gives me chills. ohlawd.
9.  the oregonian’s 2016 cheap eats list is out and my sweet tooth and wallet are vvv pleased.
10.  dang, london’s the place to be this year. you’ll find me at the artist residence hotel. oh my!
11.  my weather obsession hasn’t waned, so obvs i’m loving sunshine. notifications on pointtttt.
12.  the hiking boot ratings in this 6 hikes to celebrate spring post are just gosh darn adorable.
13.  “there are times when it will go so wrong that you will barely be alive, and times when you realize that being barely alive, on your own terms, is better than living a bloated half-life on someone else’s terms.” – jeanette winterson

oh man, what a ridiculously beautiful day to share ridiculously beautiful things tucked away on the internet. sun’s out, bun’s out so let’s just get right to it:

1.  feb fake out got me dreaming ’bout ocean-side movie screenings and a deluxe inn + spa.
2.  blogspot gives me heebie-jeebies, but i’m loving this deconstructed sushi roll. duhlishuss.
3.  oh, to be as trill as piper the wildlife control airport dog. big ups danica borgese for the fyiiiii.
4.  happy national chocolate-covered nut, chili, and clam chowder day. choose yo party wisely.
5.  currently jamming to this baller #tbt girl power playlist. that’ll do, spotify intern. that’ll do.
6.  first is the worst, second is the best so, like, shut it down and go to brewstillery2 on sat 2.27.
7.  uninspired? friend kate digilio. ask her about lunch boxes or lissie or adele’s vogue shoot.
8.  feb doesn’t usually have 29 days. eat some vvv tasty russian food to wash the weird away.
9.  grace is opening for st. lucia on fri 3.4 at wonder ballroom. a must see. def da place to be.
10.  this show will either be laaame or 2006 bbc planet earth amazing. that m. freeman vo tho.
11.  thx to pro tipper morba, here’s a superb guide to pdx dining month. legit spots up in there.
12.  “it is what you read when you don’t have to that determines what you will be when you can’t help it.” – oscar wilde

confession: i dread the short work week after a long weekend. everything’s all crazed and crammy from the get go and i end up feeling 1-2 wonky steps behind all dang week. dare i say it but … cheers to the regular size weekend and regular size work week with which we’re about to be blessed. i. can’t. wait. well, i guess can. until then:

1.  kachka teamed up with new deal distillery and answered my prayers. na zdorovie, y’all!
2.  man o man i love james turrell. if roden crater is anything like meeting, count me so in.
3.  willow is opening on 3.1 in the old fenrir space ft. $29 tasting menus all month. heyoooo.
4.  round ’em up: best breakfast? check. rad ramen? check. top tea? check. check. check.
5.  saw this video on buzzfeed and fell down a serious youtube k-hole. thisthis, aaaand this.
6.  i doubt i could commit to these verbal changes, but (and?) i bet the payoff would be sweet.
7.  whatever you’re doing on sat 2.27, cancel. we’re gonna need you at the betsy & iya bazaar.
8.  i ♥ oatmeal and have an unmanageable chocolate problemo so this is v appealing to me.
9.  speaking of things i love, 3.12-3.13 is a coffee beer, donuts, & coffee festival. *mind blown*
10.  nasa is giving away baller space posters for free. hallo studio? it’s me. i was wondering …
11.  cdx is moving so everything just went from vvv pricey to vvv discount-y. go forth, shop girls.
12.  brb while i dream about ignant’s top 5 parisian bakeries. du pain et des idées for du win!
13.  “the most expensive part of building is the mistakes.” – ken follett


TGI freaking thurs. as my fav soulcycle instructor used to say, “let’s dooooo the damn thing … {42ish min later} … damn thing been dooooone!” oh, also … important update: y’all are marvelous. not sure if you were aware so, like, fyi and stuff. you’re the best. the best! ok. needed to get that off my chest. feeling much better now. moving on:

1.  odds david would adopt this giant rabbit for us to hold when we’re stressed? #wkbunnies
2.  willamette week just released 28 reasons to love pdx. wassup 4, 9, 14, 20, and 26. i see u.
3.  keeping mad tabs on bar casa vale’s opening. think “smoked foods” means local lox? yspls.
4.  i’m sry, did u say the portland of portugal? omg nytimes. why are u so obsessed with us?
5.  heard yeasayer is releasing an album 4.1 so obvs been waxing 2010 o.n.e. nostalgic since.
6.  ooo pastaworks is baaaaack! i bet my landlord refers to me as her “centerpiece tenant” too.
7.  double tapping all of gravity blog while i save for structube’s reno table. hellooo tax return.
8.  in big ♥ with woonwinkle so vvv intrigued by the minoux trunk show they’re hosting today.
9.  anyone ever been to dance yourself clean at holocene? i so badly want it to be awesome.
10.  josé gonzáles is performing at arlene schnitzer on 3.7. remember heartbeats? *sighhhhh*
11.  wondering if the cheese & crack snack shop would ever make this beauty a little boozy …
12.  thanks to this case, i’ve never lost my key card and rarely carry a purse. liberate yo self.
13.  “one must write wonderful things, make discoveries, and see to it that wonderful things happen to you. that is life. the rest is rubbish.” – boris pasternak

this week i realized i check and talk about the weather uhhhhhlot more than i used to. thinking i might need to slow my roll because one time i saw consecutive days of 0% rain and started yelling “check the ten day! check the ten day!” at, literally, everyone. yep. time to switch gears:

1.  hold up. bette is on instagram and starring in the marc jacobs s/s ’16 campaign? jes!
2.  def enter wildfang’s win a baller wknd in pdx contest before 2.13. big no brainer. big. huge.
3.  finally, a pdx pop-up restaurant guide. just living my best secret late-night milkshake lyfe.
4.  years from now, when i have to explain hipster millennial culture, i’ll just show this. holy moly.
5.  the pdx light festival is glowin’ up the e. waterfront now thru sat 2.6. *nods approvingly*
6.  lake street dive is playing crystal ballroom on wed 3.2. go see rachael irl. whattavoice!
7.  ♥ ♥ ♥ various key tags. i daydream about custom ones i wanna give/get almost daily. sigh.
8.  i don’t get how maven collective is so fairly priced. magic? trust fund? magic trust fund?
9.  just making sure y’all know about the dirty charlie at cup & bar. yes? ok. good. wonderful.
10.  fun fact = boiling ping pong balls makes the dent pop out. thank scrap pdx for the fyiiiiiiiii.
11.  can’t find your fav booze b/c of state liquor bs? pro tip: use drink up ny or hi-time wine.
12.  “nothing is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change.” – mary shelley

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what a delightful little regular length week (that constantly felt like a jammed up short week) we just had ourselves here. despite the time warp … the good vibes, w2’s, goodbye emails, curious smells, and free kind bars were all a flowin’ and we made it through. until next time, here’s a list of misc good things to close out your thursday (not friday):

1.  got bit by the dance bug on sat so now i wanna be a video vixen drop cap when i grow up.
2.  besaw’s finally re-opened, but i’m way more interested in solo club, their bar next door.
3.  riri’s album came out today. it’s not on spotify (ugh), but it’s free on tidal for a ltd time.
4.  passport lost / expiring this year? do yourself a solid and renew asap. avoid the surge, yo.
5.  this wknd is the hand eye supply sample sale. wait. hold on. portland has sample sales?!
6.  per music snobs everywhere, julia holter’s 2.2 show at holocene is a must see. no fomo.
7.  pardon the listicle interruption for a brief message from our thurs list corporate sponsor.
8.  salt & straw’s dairy queen-esque soft serve joint opens in pine st market on 4.1. hellyes.
9.  i didn’t know 2016 was year of the monkey. will repent at mochitsuki 2016 on sun 1.31.
10.  world’s greatest cat painting arrives at the portland art museum on fri 1.29. fyi cat ppl. fyi.
11.  siggi’s yogurt is on sale for $1 at the pearl whole foods through tue 2.2. don’t tell yoplait.
12.  “enjoy it. because it’s happening.” – stephen chbosky

long week? ugh. i know. me too. let’s get to the good stuff:

1.  today’s the last day of house of common’s online sale. like, 50-70% off big. i’m sry wha?
2.  lackluster twitter problems? maybe try following @whoopi_pics. literally just whoopi pics.
3.  will joseph cook and his lovely little song beach is getting me to tomorrow. *deep breaths*
4.  hunting for a rug and found frances loom. holy vintage moly! new gems every thurs.
5.  didn’t think i was an rv gal, but man does the mehrzeller look cool. let’s get outta dodge!
6.  anyone wanna throw a disco themed party? need more shimmer and sparkle in my life rn.
7.  what, pray tell, is a salmon estuary tour? idk but down for a guided coos bay kayaking tour!
8.  found out grassa is replacing pastini pastaria on nw 23rd. what’s italian for upgraaaade?
9.  uses this is a favorite blog and they recently interviewed a favorite lady. fuck yea sarah brin!
10.  “in the space between chaos and shape there was another chance.” – jeanette winterson

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man has this been a weird week. like everything was on slo-mo and fast-forward at the same time or something. blech. excellent timing for a ♥ to ♥ bear hug long weekend, don’t ya think? oh yea. y’all knew that right? no worky day job fun times on monday so, like, go craaaaaazay and stuff on sunday. until then … here’s what’s up:

1.  for the record, i am drinking this month. currently craving the no. 8 and jack’s manhattan.
2.  just found out sharon needles’ show at lovecraft on fri 12.15 is sold out. what? nooOOOoo!
3.  dreaming about sunny walks to lunch in the vvv near future. pine street market, anyone?
4.  what are you doing on tue jan 19? nothing? cool. get yo butt to church for dolly’s 70th bday.
5.  watching this video over & over & over. that move at 1:05! i wanna dance with somebody.
6.  the portland mercury anonymous blog is sorta hit or miss, but this post got me lol-ing today.
7.  michael blume sounds like an electronic leon bridges with more bass (less throwback). dig it.
8.  planning a lady vacay and using luxury link for deals thanks to pro traveler erica leader.
9.  i sometimes wonder about beyoncé’s notification settings. i bet show on lock screen is off.
10.  why yes, xtabay, i’m pretty sure one of us does need this dress. vvv kind of you to notice.
11.  plz don’t kill my vibe or ability to attend the holy trinity rnb tribute at holocene on 1.23.

congrats on finishing a [sorta] full week of back to work working without leaving your laptop in the sink. you’re doing great! roll with it. also …

1.  the nytimes just published its 52 places to go in 2016 travel round up. brb all damn day.
2.  i have a really good feeling about the society hotel. see the rooftop before it’s a scene.
3.  did you know planned parenthood has a tumblr? seriously, it’s good. like, really good.
4.  finally updated my pdx to do list and now it’s 2x longer than my nyc to do list. let’s haaang.
5.  listen foodiez. 2016 is the year of mae so best get yourself on that ressie mailing list stat.
6.  i fell down a yelp k-hole and now i’m considering making an appt. with miss renee. hoboy.
7.  lily tomlin is performing on sat jan 16 at the symphony. go. that’s ms. frizzle for god’s sake!
8.  the next pdx collective sale is jan 22-23 at the cleaners and the lineup is lookin’ sweeeeeet.
9.  got some smoko yeti usb footwarmers today and, like, wow. what a world. all the things!
10.  “she may be wearing balenciaga but she’s also wearing coke, ya know what i mean?” – rereading ryan’s o’connell guide to dressing like an olsen because it’s freaking timeless.

2015 was tectonic.

i said yes to some big questions hoping it would cause the plates of my life to unhinge a little from the continental crust holding them in place and help me out of my late 20 something rut with a heavy dose of the unknown. but then … well … shit. my plates didn’t just unhinge, they went fucking seismic and slid out from under each other and floated 2442 miles away. i mean, good lord. no wonder i was so tightly wound and scared and sad. but, if there is one nice thing about natural disasters, it’s that they don’t last forever. they can’t. at some point, you form a plan and you go along with said plan because the alternative is sitting still and staying sad and that seems … i don’t know … shitty? and then, before too long, the plan isn’t even a plan, it’s the norm and the norm is fine and then eventually the norm is pretty good and sometimes it’s even great. i guess what i’m trying to say is that my 2015 was really serious and that’s totally okay but also why i’ve decided in 2016 there will be laughing. lots of laughing.

2016: why so serious?

i’m chillin in portland all break (jewish *shrugs*) and had a touch of free time (ok fine nothing but free time) and thought y’all might need a little escape from your holiday swirl. yea? cool:

1.  unsure which movie will cure what the break is throwin’ at ya? this list will help. brooklyn!
2.  winter still isn’t over, but, like, good! more time to save for a hanging geodesic love seat.
3.  drake on cake is great, but we’ve got a bakestress in-house that can totally hold her own.
4.  “boy, are you wifi? because if i have to pay for your ass i’m out.” – yassss to boy are you.
5.  can we pleeeease go to matt’s bbq? the brisket is supposedly fatty / flavorful as hell now.
6.  heard lover by in the valley below via my discover weekly and now it’s on repeat forever.
7.  all right listen up, folks. janet jackson tribute night is on wed 1.13 at holocene. i repeat …
8.  and hood internet will be at mississippi studios on fri 1.22 in case you neeeeed to dance.
9.  brooke and boaz made the sweetest travel portland zine. start there and then hit the rest.
10.  “it is no bad thing to celebrate a simple life.” – j.r.r. tolkien

i’ve been listening to beiber’s new album uhhhhlot this week and now i feel full of youthful ignorance and supersized pride but also like i’m locked in an ibiza warehouse with a rowdy gang of 14 year olds. probably best to put le beibs on pause for a sec and focus on some other nice cool things like:

1.  new rules: must love dogs, must follow @dog_rates. would pet diligently. 12/10.
2.  ever wonder wut happens at an adele concert? thx to all knowing erica, mystery solved!
3.  long dog makes clothing for long dogs (corgis, dachshunds, bassets, etc.). srsly can i live?
4.  wanna unlimited vacay in negril next year? american is selling roundtrip tickets for $391!
5.  it’s that best of time and this post + this playlist will cure even the gnarliest of music ruts.
6.  thatcher, jong-un, or putin bluetooth speaker busts? sorta leaning double thatcher tbh …
7.  once upon a midnight blurry could have been us, but we playin’ mad men 2016 vibes now.
8.  if j fernandez is considered bedroom pop, then i guess i’m into bedroom pop. who knew.
9.  for all my planners out there (wut up!!), here’s a list of good eats open on new years day.
10.  bone thugs is playing at crystal ballroom on 1.21. ugh home used to be my evvverything.
11.  late dec daters block? try the aerial tram – or – the vacuum museum – or – the grotto light festival. bankable fun times guaranteed (w/ or w/o an “only in portland” heavy sigh roll).

you’re busy. i’m busy. it’s freaking busy. let’s get right to the good stuff:

1.  ever heard of structube furniture? saw on the artful desperado. looks affordable and nice!
2.  in case anyone wants to fall down an internet hole, here’s the most viral tumblrs of 2015.
3.  yo, nordstrom’s does price matching! jessica lo got them to sell her hunters for $79.99.
4.  move over, kraft cheese singles. there’s a new kid in town. man, japan is the best at foods.
5.  a nihilist charlie brown blog named may contain peanuts is my grace rn. also, i feel you.
6.  there will be a thai fried chicken joint across the street from podnah’s. end scene.
7.  can someone help me rock a weightless gold trinket skinny chambray femme look? thx.
8.  thoughts on pdx’s famous vegan bbq cart? heard they gots a brick n’ mortar in sw now.
9.  very ’bout it xmas party at produce row on fri 12.11 is looking like a must go aka u must go.
10.  “the world breaks everyone, and afterward, many are strong at the broken places.” – ernest hemingway

snapshots from the passenger seat. this was a few weeks ago – early november – so i packed as i was told:

it’ll be raining! pack boots!
it’ll be freezing! pack layers!
it’ll be storming! pack coats! 

but the day we drove out was nothing like that. clear, beautiful, abundant, forgiving skies the whole way and when we arrived in manzanita just after sunset, the view took my breath away. i can’t remember the last time i looked up and saw stars.

the hiiiiiiiiills [of the atrium] are alive with the sooooooooound of [ambient ocean] music and in case you can’t remember where you parked your getaway canoe, here’s a grab bag of internet quaaludes to get you through:

1.  pacific coast storm watching and a 7 course breakfast? you had me at 7 course breakfast.
2.  jonesing for primecut’s salt + pepper hobo bag (spotted at the cleaners on black friday).
3.  i don’t think i’ve ever seen a vintage store do a look book before. damn, yo vintage. get it.
4.  obsessed with the jackets in this video + the part at 0:50 when everyone goes f-ing nuts.
5.  ’tis the season for state-wide truffle fests, apparently. so weird it might just work. to eugene!
6.  i wanted to hate this ’13 huffpo dating article, but then the 1st point became my north star.
7.  guyzzzz are these really the best holiday baked goods in all of portland? pdx n00b here.
8.  those are some sweet polaroids, casting director bonnie timmermann. great name too, girl.
9.  my excitement to see if pizza jerk lives up to its hype has become unmanageable. halp.
10.  ooo the portland mercury sex survey results are in! it’s a lot of copy for an internet thing, but full of lolz like “20% of you like to be submissive, which is why there are so many cars in portland, sitting at four-way stops, just waving other cars through.”

this week has been brought to you by pie (oh my gawd so much pie), lol worthy karaoke, totally unreasonable 5pm downpours, meetings about meetings about meetings, and feeling all the feels. tldr could use a nice little list right now. oh yea? you too? ok whew:

1.  can someone make sure the new pip’s donut + chai truck will be at the holiday party? thx.
2.  hold all my calls. need to spend the rest of today perusing 30 years of janet jackson style.
3.  fyi to all da queens living in nw alphabet – boxer ramen is coming to kearny & nw 23rd.
4.  everything will be ok, but maybe watch drunk ppl being surprised by puppies just in case.
5.  i finally found a highly recommended improv show and it’s fri 11.20 at the siren theater. wee!
6.  super filtered and saturated picture of me from earlier this week. le sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
7.  this photo of burt reynolds and sally field mostly re: sally’s a+ shoe situation. that heel!
8.  there is an egg nog competition on sun 12.13. i repeat. there is an egg nog competition …
9.  omg former san antonio brewery turned shmancy hotel. how are you so beautiful? how?
10.  “even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise.” – victor hugo

holy fast ass week batman. i don’t know about you, but things feel crazier than usual right now, like major important sh*t is only a few wrong turns from going completely off the rails. when it gets like this i like to turn up the tunez to 11 and make a quick list of some nice, cool things to share with some nice, cool girls. cheers to the latter + the freakin’ weekend (ugh ♥ those booty shorts):

1.  y’all saw our very own grace rivera is one of pdx monthly’s fav instagrammers, riiiiiight?
2.  idk about you, but this thanksgiving i’m gettin’ on team dangly leaf + mini rosemary wreath.
3.  i randomly received a bits and pieces catalog and the goods are giving me major lolz.
4.  y’all think we can get a set of these balloons for the office? yea? yea? maybe? thx.
5.  here’s a 4th grader reminding us that no matter what anyone says, girl code is unbreakable.
6.  nomad expanded their hrs + added staff. thank gawd. $$$ 15 course mealz 4 everybody!
7.  this fashion takeover at the ace on sat 11.14 looks super rad. i’m goin. can’t stop me.
8.  for abs no reason, i’m really loving this pic of leo drinking a pyrex of milk. bless the internet.
9.  i wanna try big egg so bad. anyone been? worth it? pls say yes pls say yes pls say yes.
10.  witchoria is one of my favorite tumblr time wasters (a cosmic coffee would be vvv nice rn).

well this has been a fun little week, hasn’t it? if my senses/sources are correct, there’s been loads of autumnal realness and chill goodness reverberating ’round these parts (note: if you haven’t felt this way, plz stop by my desk for to-go vibes). alrighty then, let’s kick this week’s list into high gear:

1.  well whaddya know? hump 2015 is finally here. gotta get up to get down!
2.  this trove of 70s street style is bringing both the noise and the funk (see above).
3.  oooo cyril hahn is playing at holocene on sat nov 7! who dat? def start with open.
4.  the mothership is hit, i repeat, the mothership is hit. omg chill omg chill omg chill.
5.  if i wasn’t getting outta dodge this wknd, i’d hit folk’s furniture pop-up. prob $$$$ tho.
6.  here’s a round up of pdx’s best hot cocoa. need confirmation if this is legit, like, asap.
7.  i’m currently lovingggg everything at schoolhouse electric esp this crescent moon bird.
8.  i wouldn’t be mad if someone got me this gold saint laurent bomber for abs no reason.
9.  am i the only one confounded by pdx’s delivery scene? finally tho, a helpful review.
10.  ezra furman is playing at mississippi studios on wed 12.2 and i’m the MOST pumped because his latest album perpetual motion people is f-ing incredible and he’s a beloved camp friend of mine. see you there?

last week was a doooooozy. this week? ehhh … idk … jury’s still out. ups and downs, ebbs and flows, will do’s but srsly step off ma inbox’s not withstanding, how about a little fresh internet air to get us from now to eod tomorrow, yea?

1.  first and foremost, the struggle [for this baby panda to roll over] is real.
2.  oh good there’s an unofficial guide to pdx’s best u-pick apple orchards.
3.  vintage 90s drew barrymore is giving me all kinds of good vibes today.
4.  grüner will close for good on new years and be handed off to the ox peeps.
5.  society 6 just started selling blankets and now i’m overwhelmed by cozy/choices.
6.  “the intensity of blooms this year has no precedent” (see chilean desert pic below).
7.  this guy was called “peter butt jig” in middle school, but now he’s the mayor of my hometown and a recipient of a kennedy award. oh wassup bullies? how u?
8.  my newest off menu counter order is scrambled egg whites, spinach, and chicken over a bed of quinoa and topped with avocado + aardvark hot sauce (plated in a bowl obvs).
9.  if you’re into travel + deals, def start following the flight deal pdx. no brainer.
10.  and now … some universal pooping truths (thanks, shannon hutchinson!)

Version 2.0 (2013)
ugh. this week. oy amirite. let’s lighten the mood, shall we?

1.  this seventeen mag cover from aug 1994. brendan fraser and evan dando? swoontown.
2.  here’s every important pdx cocktail bar, mapped. comment to keep ’em honest.
3.  not your average how to be an acceptable human list. decency! let’s try for it!
4.  “a desk is a dangerous place from which to view the world.” – john le carré
5.  rumor has it uber pdx is going to offer rides up/down mount hood this winter. whoa!
6.  parabo’s 36″ wood rails is how i framed wk’s martha rich poster for under $50.
7.  my brain’s real full rn. prob why i’m feelin’ eugenia loli‘s surreal collages (above).
8.  sometimes i binge watch apple trailers. latest finds = nasty baby + the new girlfriend.
9.  oh, you know, just some classy ass furniture for your classy ass cat. ass cat. ha.

as of today, i’ve been here for 6 months. i’m writing this down and because, much like my dad, if i don’t write things down they might as well never happened. it also feels really good to acknowledge all of the choices and changes and miles and minutes and giant leaps and incremental steps and you’re so brave’s and i never thought you’d leave’s and how does this work’s and what the fucking fuck’s and do you have a car’s and where do you live’s and yes yes okay’s and no no not anymore’s that took place between “back then” and “right now.” no judgments, no conclusions … just written and confirmed:

this happened.

OKAY kiddos. let’s get right into it:

1.  sweater weather is neigh.
2.  if you’re interested in good times, check out this post.
3.  i highly recco everybody chill for a sec and throw some d’s.
4.  whole foods is selling small oatmeal for 25 cents through 10.27.
5.  bit house saloon is throwing a “bar of the year” + ice luge party tonight.
6.  michael ian black is doing 4 shows at helium this weeeeekend.
7.  seven is a much better amount of things in a list than six.

thursdays are great and lists are great so … i was thinking … why not smoooosh them together and make this day supa dupa great? yea! chokay so, here’s vol 1 of a [hopefully] weekly round up of greatness:

1.  mercury is retrograde through friday (umm … duh).
2.  omg there’s a junk bonanza in ridgefield this weekend.
3.  quality bar is rocking a real nice vibe and it is vvv close to wk.
4.  ruth reichl is speaking at revolution hall on sat 10.10. her tweets are divine.
5.  autre ne veut is performing at star theater on mon 10.12. oo counting ftw.
6.  dark igloo is showing at fisk gallery on fri 10.9. pretty sure they are cool.
7.  my off-menu counter order is an egg white, spinach, and avocado wrap ($6)
8.  typatone makes out of context work emails beeeeeeautiful (ohwassup leola!)
9.  next year i’d like to go to the rockhouse negril. how do you unlimited vacay?
10.  the new el capitain system font is giving me so much life rn.

news flash:
it all kinda sucks.
deal with it.
don’t become part of it.

wasted rita

i’m sick of this record already
let’s wreck all the preconceived notions they bring to it
check all the baggage or better yet burn it
and start all over again

let’s start with your life as you know it
we’re back in our mothers’ wombs folded like notebooks
we had no idea of all the tote bags and meat hooks
waiting out in the world

one september in boston
i lost the will to live
i was just like an astronaut cut from the ship
floating and waiting to die
i was sick of my ordinary life
i was so sick of ordinary life
i was sick of this ordinary life

the human mind gets sick real easy
the human mind gets way fucking sick of beauty
and i know, and it’s happened to me
again and again
again and again

you’ve gotta make it new
you’ve gotta keep it new to keep it true
and you’re allowed to do anything you’ve gotta do
just cause you’re sick of your ordinary life
doesn’t mean you should bottle up and die
lose your way completely but stay alive

ditty bop sha lang lang
ditty bop sha lang sha ditty lang
ditty bop sha lang lang ditty lang

ezra furman, ordinary life

i took a deep breath
and listened to
the old bray of my heart.
i am. i am. i am.

sylvia plath

september was hard. i got back from switzerland and suddenly found myself refreshingly busy at work, but also entangled in nebulous work politics that left me feeling unsure of my instincts and hesitant in my choices and – this is where things started to unravel – slow to stand up for myself. the stress and anxiety swirled, the sound of an old friend’s voice brought me to tears, and i quietly wondered what i was even doing here. it’s funny. in new york i could only handle 48 hours of feeling weird and uncomfortable before i had to do something about it. in portland? weeks, nearly a month. maybe new york really is faster than portland. maybe new york is already at capacity when it comes to weird and uncomfortable. maybe there’s no difference or reason or rulebook and life is whatever the fuck it is and sometimes things are just hard a little longer than the last time they were hard. okay. so september sucked. so what? when i was ready, i took a deep breath and trusted my instincts and wore a lot of black and put on heels and blasted beyoncé and made it abundantly clear to myself and others:

i am. i am. i am.

vagary, n.

the mistake is thinking
there can be an antidote
to the uncertainty.

david levithan

back in february i chose “go through it” as my 3 word thesis for 2015 (full breakdown of my previous 3 word theses here) and maybe this is one of those “ugh shut up this horoscope could vaguely apply to anyone” eye roll inducing coincidences, but “go through it” has been a really on point personal compass for me. i started thinking about it this morning and realized i’ve gone through a lot of very real [late late 20-something] life shit since february:

negotiating my worth
letting go of new york
packing up my life
moving two thousand miles away
finding a new apartment
dating long distancing
breaking up long distance
producing long distance
forming new and meaningful friendships
feeling lost, obnoxious, alone
feeling smart, strong, capable
feeling nothing, something, everything

i get asked uhhhhlot whether i (a) love it here (b) miss new york. i think people really want to hear (a) yes! (b) no!, but neither of those answers feel totally right and i have absolutely no poker face when it comes to my personal life (or filter … sorry family). every time i meet someone new i brace myself for the inquiry and when it inevitably comes up i end up rambling emo-laden nonsense for 15 minutes until something along the lines of “ummm i don’t know i’m ok” blubbers out. the truth is, i can’t answer these questions because i’m not done yet.

i’m going through it.

it’s such a
being always

langston hughes, “ennui”

i’m super broke right now and thought i was depressed due to said super broke-ness, but then i found the new chet faker feat. banks and decided i’m not depressed. i’m just experiencing a temporary lack of funds combined with a temporary lack of good new tunes to put on repeat while i try not to buy anything, ever.

update → i just saw a corgi.
so maybe everything’s all right?
idk. you tell me, universe.


ps – if you’re feeling like throwing money at something, i will happily be your something. $5-$5000. i can untangle your cords. i’d love to untangle your cords.

1. monica visited me this past weekend and life immediately got 10x more wonderful. i tried to show her my version of portland through the few good friends i’ve made here thus far instead of forcing participation in misc plug and play fun time activities. highlights/mvp’s included river swims + sun bathing at rooster rock with launa, michael, and ryan, dinner + dessert with emily, maggie, and christopher, and goo gone delivery + stoop sitting with eddye and bo. fyi, universe: i would not be upset if monica decided to repatriate and make portland her new home.
2. clear skies, deep blue breaths. everyone says i came at the right time. cautiously optimistic.
3. all the murals here feel like they were painted just a few hours before i stumbled upon them. bold, unapologetic fuckers. this one is in southeast and reminds me of bowery & houston.
4. i left my [now discontinued] joe fresh aviators at michael’s 4th of july bbq east of se 82nd, never to be heard from again. rip officer marsh (may 2013 – july 2015). let the record reflect, i am very fond of these classic gold ray-ban aviators and ship most things to my work address.
5. i feel prickly and weird right now and decided that’s okay. quitting, packing, moving, breaking, hurting, healing – an onslaught of all the prickly, weird things all at once (not sure how else i’d be). at least the universe is always in its perfect order even if it doesn’t feel like it, at all.